Happy Days are Over

I've been on hiatus for quite sometime now but this photo stirred me up to blog again! I always end up staring blankly at it. I love this shot, maybe because he took it..

Overjoyed?
See how happy I am when you're with me?
But I guess Happy Days are now over.
How it ended and when?
It's only you who could answer..
But then again Happy Days are over.. *sigh*

Last Stretch Before Summer Ends

Tadjaw Beach Resort and Spa with the family :)
Tanghas, Tolosa, Leyte

End of Summer Trip to Bohol

The not so perfect trip with the perfect company and my NFF :)

Mommy and Baby

I'm back! I haven't blogged for quite some time now.

Here are some not so sweet photos

at my brother's drum recital


at the barrio fiesta

at home

at the park

Bayo Boutique in Tacloban City

Today’s the opening of Bayo here in Tacloban City. I was there with my officemate Virna. Initially, we just wanted take a peek on the opening and we didn’t have plans to shop. But the blouses were so tempting, so off I went to the fitting room. Unfortunately, those using the fitting rooms (two) ahead of me were fitting like a dozen of blouses and in less than an hour I need to be in the office. We ended up buying four razor back blouses for five hundred pesos only in the nearby shop haha And, I wasn’t late for work! I’m planning to go back to Bayo this weekend.

Just Another Photo!

My younger sister’s bedside nook that E loves to mess up!

The "Bikini" Nightclub

What an unforgettable but not worth remembering Friday night I had. It was my first time to go to a nightclub! Yeah a night club with naked women dancing! We arrived around 2am just in time for the highlight of their show, the first woman I see dancing was naked but with a transparent scarf though hung on her neck. It was traumatic for a first timer haha! I mean, it could have been a little bit subtle if the first dancer I saw at least had a two-piece clothing on. It was just a middle-class type of nightclub, you wouldn’t see prominent personalities inside. I think I need to go to a more elite venue next time. Of course, not to see more strippers but to get a comparison. Isn’t it an obvious excuse? ehem ehem! :)

It wasn’t that awkward for a first timer since I was with my officemates and the 2 bosses. All expenses paid, from drinks to cigars to food. :) I wanted to take pictures for souvenirs but it wasn’t allowed inside the place. While I was inside I was somehow worried that the club would be raided and photos will be taken with our faces on it! Then I would have a souvenir! Yay!

When my Dad was still based here in Tacloban, their office would raid nightclubs with strippers and I would see a lot of pictures of naked women dancing on stage. The pictures aren’t that lucid though due to the lightings inside the club. Those lights could make ugly dancers look pretty and appetizing to men! haha I never imagined myself to be on those nightclubs until last Saturday early morning! There’s always a first time! And a next time.

Congrats! Yay!

I just got a 49.65% increase in my salary today! Yay!

I’ve been with this company for eight months now. It’s an American company that has outsourced here in our city. We are maintaining some US based websites and I’m a part of the Project Team. The company is full of surprises especially when both of the American owners are in the country. They visit the office here around two to three times a year and some of the old employees get to travel abroad for free! And that’s every year. See how lucky we’re apart of this company? You’ll just need patience and hard-work to succeed.

I’m not commending the company because I just got a salary increase but it’s the truth. Swear! The owners are the type of employers anyone would drool to have but of course you just need to adjust to the different attitudes of the other people in the office. This is where patience will be badly needed and nurtured to perfection, meaning be numb (but in a positive way though)!

So, go go go! More hard work needed here and I need to go back to work now.

Uncertain Smile

I’m happy today! Yey!
I wish I knew why!

A Not So Sweet Escape

I have a new way of a sweet escape outside the real “harsh and complicated” world, reading blogs of other people of so different personalities and different worlds. Most of them are Filipina bloggers, maybe because I’m also a Filipina and I get to relate to their posts. There are some that I don’t like the way they are (not the way they write) but I keep on lurking at their blogs. Reading and soaking up myself on the assorted emotions on their blogs, I tend to forget my real life and live in imagination a surreal life on the other blogger’s character. How do you call this? Is this what you call daydreaming? Or I’m just getting insane? hahaha I don’t think so. But whatever you call it, it makes me satisfy my little fancy fantasies.

I have a confession to make, I am a throne lover! Not that I love to poop all the time though but I get to daydream every time I seat on my throne. I make sure that every time I take a bath I spend some quality time with my throne whether I poop or not! At this “liberated” moments I get to do stuff which my parents for sure wouldn’t allow me, situations which I think I could have gone through with more composure, traveling somewhere or petty things such as illusions of my ideal men (like wishing Chiz Escudero met me before he got married and asked me to marry him!), of course all are just on my pretty creative mind.

My mind is still sound, I’m just giving myself the freedom to be whoever I wanna be in my little make-believe world.

Back at Work!

I’m back at work after a two-day leave. On the second day, most of the day I was at home and it made me feel office-sick! Yes, I missed my work and I was eager to face my computer again. I hate it when I’m doing nothing because I get to recollect all my worries and dreams that I haven’t started fulfilling yet. I want to fast-forward time. The only reason that makes me wanna go home is E. I have this weird feeling that all that are happening now are temporary and that something greater is bound to happen. I know I have to strive harder for that. In fact, life was never easy and smooth-sailing for me, I always had my most significant accomplishments the hard way.

There I go again with my being “emotic”.

Ethan’s First Birthday!

Happy Birthday to You!
Happy Birthday to You!
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday to You!

I love you Baby! Mwah!

Venting It Out

I must be excited today, it’s E’s 1st birthday tomorrow. But, I’m not. My mind’s floating and going nowhere with my Father’s historical naggings again. Each time he comes home from Manila we would have series of light to unbearable arguments. I know I have made wrong decisions in the past (quite a number of them) but long I’ve been sorry and regretful (for some) about them. I have received enough heartache and sermons in the past that reiterating them is hurting me again. I need understanding and support, I’m human and I also have feelings. Isn’t it obvious?! I’ve grown to holding back my personal feelings and showing everybody, most specially my family that I’m strong. I know I’m strong but of course I still have my weaknesses, a metal itself melts how much more for me. Yes they’re right, I’m smart and supposedly intelligent because I graduated high school from Pisay, passed the entrance exam for UP and ADMU and a DOST scholar in college! But do they think I’m fancying the thought of choosing the wrong options? Who in her right senses would have wanted to fail! But shit happens, unfortunately I had a bunch of them.

Now, he wants me to take up Law and be a lawyer like him and Mama. I used to dream of becoming a lawyer when I was literally little because it’s the profession that I was seeing on my parents. Now that I’m in the real world of applying for jobs, getting accepted and losing them at one point – I realized it’s not what I wanted. If ever I go to school again it would be HRM or nothing at all! I want to be in this industry and in my heart I know it’s where I’ll belong someday soon. Please let me be who I want to be, let me spread my wings and go to where I want to fly. Trust me. No supports needed, just a loose grip.

Last night, I had a hard time sleeping due to too much worrying. The neurons in my brain were telling me to go back to Cebu and leave independently again. It’s impossible for now ‘coz E’s still dependent on me. I’ll consider that idea but not now.

For 7 years I’ve been away from my family because I studied and eventually worked in Cebu, I only came home during school breaks. For 7 years I longed for a family to share my thoughts with, but now that I’m home for some reasons I wanna get out again.

What My Name Means

What "My Name" Means

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

I got this description (a very long one! haha) from this site. It’ll just ask for your name then magic!, an essay of your name. But really it amazes me, the information above are mostly right about me.

It's easy to get you excited. – I have so many inadvertent decisions and plans. I’m also a compulsive buyer.

You don't stick with any one thing for very long. – True again! I easily get jaded on things that I do often. Doubtless, it’s just my face that I don’t get tired of haha

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. – This one is on my high school yearbook! My classmates used to tell me that I try to finish school tasks ahead of time so I have much time to relax and just popping around.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. – My mind’s always running (sometimes it’s a bit slow though haha) and so many things are going through my mind. It’s giving me hard time sleeping most of the times.

You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. – A friend on Facebook described me as one type who'd most likely get out of trouble smiling.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. –Ha! Of course! Why not?!

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. – I’m pessimistic sometimes and it results from too much thinking. I easily get jealous! I feel relaxed when I’m always given the assurance that what is mine remains to be mine. I remember, I would get mad when the father of Ethan would not say or text iluvu to me before sleeping (so cheesy) haha

What's Keeping Me Busy These Days

I haven't blogged these past days. I’ve been busy with so many things at work, for Ethan and for myself. Rather preoccupied, not busy. Work: My tasks are piling up already, I have to follow up a number of officemates for half-done stuff, my reports plus my usual tasks. Ethan: He’s 1st birthday’s coming and I haven't finalized the preparations. I must not overlook the little important details that would make his party fun for him. But he already has a birthday costume, it was Lola’s pasalubong for him! Myself: I’m planning to study again and take up BSHRM. Actually, I’m already definite about it. It’s just that Plan A didn’t work and now I’m trying to fix things for Plan B. I hope I make it this time. I’ll still be working while studying so I can send my ass to school! That would be a challenge for me but I’m thrilled and all set for it. (I hope so!) Yay!

Since I’ve been religiously working (no lates and no absences) these past WEEKS hahaha, I think must deserve a break! Yesterday I submitted an application for a two and a half day leave for the month of February. I’m pretty sure it would get approved, I have enough leave credits for it.

I overheard my officemate sitting next to me mentioning that heart’s day is coming, she’s absolutely right! I found myself thinking, is there a heart’s day waiting for me?! hahaha

6th Month on My Current Job!

I just had my annual performance evaluation with my manager and HR. Actually, it’s also my 6th month evaluation since I just started last July of 2007. Compared to my performance evaluations on my job prior to my job now, my evaluators now were far too nice! Really, it even made me think that they are just fawning over me. On my previous job, I used to be a sluggish author services representative for a printing services company. Now, I am a Project Editor (just read this on my evaluation papers coz I used to say web editor). I was an apathetic hostile employee! My supervisor would never end a working day without uttering or doing something that would make me hate her as well! No doubt, a dupe was growing inside my tummy at that time! hahaha I loved to hate everybody at that time.

If you get to barely survive stay on a job for a longer time it will be an added distinction on your resume but it’s an addition to your experience luggage if you go on job hopping just for the heck of transferring or going where your friends are. Like my mom, she’s been with COA (Commission on Audit) for more than 25 years now. It’s her first and only job after graduation and she has made her way up to where she is now. Me, I always make my way to start again! hahaha 6 months on a single job is already a rare effort on my part! FYI: now I’m 24 with a 10-month-old alter ego. At any rate, there are more months/years to come, good luck to me!

Ever After Syndrome

“And now we're slightly weathered, we're slightly worn
Our hands grip together, eye to eye through the storm, yet
I still believe in ever after with you, yeahhhhh
Cuz life is a pleasure with you by my side,
And there ain't no current in this river we can't ride
I still believe in ever after with you
You are my twisted sunshine…”

I used to feel this way and used to be convinced by this drama. Perhaps, the typical incomprehensible feeling of a teenage college student falling out of line and falling in love for the first time. The dainty feelings of I want to but I can’t and I have to but I don’t want to. Thanks to all my exceptional out of track experiences, now I am free. Rather, semi-free but just for now.

On a brighter note, every time I hear this song there’s this snickering part of me that wants to groove. Just recently, I get to remember our high school alumni homecoming last month. Hahaha I had fun!

By the way, It’s Friday today. No work tomorrow. I didn’t get enough of the holiday break, my jaded brain ain’t set yet to work.

Happy weekend!

New Year Thoughts

2008 just started but I already have so many thoughts on my mind.

I Started the New Year Right

Our family heard mass together.

Now I'm blogging.. Yay!

Looking Back <--- 2007

2007 is the most unforgettable year for me. I had e! It's the year that I wouldn't want to miss on my next life.

I gave my parents their most whopping frustration. One thing I can never ever and wouldn't want to be regretful of.

My dum-dum life reorganized itself.

I have something/someone to look forward to every time I wake up in the morning.

A little dude is now interrupting my invincible sleep! And he's making all of us happy!

2008

Happy New Year!

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